E - Eventually

Eventually

Everything takes time. I think that's a given. Since we were young, we've always been told 'practice makes perfect' and 'you need to work hard to get there' and 'it'll be better eventually'. 

And yes, that can bring us a lot of comfort. I'll eventually get there. Repeating that to ourselves can be a massive source of comfort. But also, it can be extremely unmotivating. Yes, I'll get there eventually. But when IS eventually.

• In a minute?
• In an hour?
• A day?
• A week?
• Month?
• Year?
• Decade?
• Will it even happen within our lifetime?

Now, this can be a massive comfort. The world will be destroyed eventually, but probably not within our life time.

We will have to get a job eventually, but not NOW, so for now we can relax.

For so many issues, we can just push them away. They'll happen eventually, I don't need to worry about it now. 

But sometimes it can be completely the opposite. 

Yes, the exam will happen eventually, and that isn't now - but it's still going to happen, and we are still going to have to deal with it. Just because it's in the future, it doesn't mean it isn't difficult.

And yes, it's comforting to know that when you feel rubbish it will stop eventually, but right now every second, every breath, every single MOMENT feels hard. So actually, knowing it is going to be better eventually doesn't really help me does it? Because, although it will be better eventually, I'm in the present, and it doesn't REALLY help me.

I don't really have a proper conclusion for this. 

But that has been E.

See you next time, for F.

-An Alphabet of Thoughts